A Spy's Confession

Jeffrey Delisle, a Canadian naval officer who spied for Russian military intelligence, talks about his emotional state that led him to spy.

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A Psychological Perfect Storm: The Jeffery Delisle Case, Part I

“They Had a Photo of My Children”: The Jeffery Delisle Case, Part II

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"I am utterly amazed to find this espionage related website that accurately describes the true experiences of the spy. Reading the stages actually made me tremble as I recalled my own entry into the world of espionage and the inevitable consequences."

--Jens Karney (a.k.a. Jeffrey M. Carney), US Air Force intel specialist who spied for East Germany's Ministry of State Security (MfS)

What it’s really like to spy

“Here I sat with the KGB monkey already on my back, surrounded by all these young people who were being fed totally inaccurate descriptions of espionage.”

Read/Watch the testimony of Christopher Boyce on Capitol Hill

On Committing Espionage

“I realized immediately that there was no stepping back. I was doomed. My life would never go back to the way it was before. I was surrounded by an impending sense of doom, knowing this was something that could not end well. . . . What you’re really doing is just walking into a buzz-saw.”

—Christopher Boyce, government contractor who spied for the KGB

Boyce on Stage Five:

Remorse/Morning-After Stage: "I would at this point be having second thoughts. Asking myself “What did I do!? What have I brought down upon my head? Did I really do this??”

Read about Stage Five

Robert Lipka on Spying:

“When I first got into it, I didn't realize what it all meant. As I was doing it, I did come to realize and I did try to withdraw numerous times. I've lived a life of terror for 30 years that this whole thing would get found out.”

—Former NSA employee and Soviet spy Robert Lipka who spied in the 1960s and got caught in the 1990s

Jonathan Pollard on Spying:

“There is nothing good that came as a result of my actions. I tried to serve two countries at the same time. That does not work.”

—US Navy intelligence analyst Jonathan Pollard who spied for Israel

David Boone on Spying:

“I regret the actions I took. they were wrong. They overshadowed anything good I've done in my life before and after. I’m glad it’s over.”

—NSA employee David Boone who spied for the Russian KGB intelligence service

Jeffery Delisle on Spying:

"I walked right into the Russian Embassy and that was the last day of Jeff Delisle. So I committed professional suicide. I knew I was hooked and they knew they had me by the short hairs too... they had all my information, they had photos of me, they had a photo of my children and I knew exactly what it was for."

—Canadian Navy intelligence analyst who spied for the Russian GRU military intelligence service

Aldrich Ames on Spying:

“I regret very much the betrayal of the trust they put in me, and of the oaths that I swore, and that I did it for my own gain and then my own arrogance.”

—Former CIA operations officer and Russian KGB spy Rick Ames

Ron Hassen on Spying:

“There simply are no words to accurately and fully express the depth of regret I have for my decisions and actions. I am so sorry. I would give anything to go back and change this. ANYTHING.”

—Former US Army and DIA intelligence officer who spied for China

A Spy’s Confession

Jeffrey Delisle, a Canadian naval officer who spied for Russian military intelligence, talks about his emotional state that led him to spy.

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